about two

I don't know what is it about love. I often refer to marriage and thought it's just a mutual regard of bearing the responsibilities each one is 'assigned' to, like just another job u're acting upon. 'you do your part and i'll do mine, we'll be teamworking in harmony, work hard, and of course - all for the sake of Allah.' Little did i know it's more complicated than that.

Because it involves feelings. One that i've always cheated just to avoid pain. Feelings that can let your soul fly, your mind wonder, your body yearn, and your heart miss. It's crazy! I'm still trying to deny this, at least i think it's best for now. I have tonnes of things to get done before the date, i can't let myself loose yet. But, who am i kidding? You have to agree, it's just not easy.

Sigh.

I'm a coward still though. But it's my problem not yours.

i miss home :'(

Ya Ayyuhal Walad

live however you wish because you will die one day,
love anything you wish because you will part from it one day,
do whatever you wish because you will be judged accordingly.

Make it a lesson for us cause it's Allah's way of reminding.

It hurts, yes.
It hurts to know while he's a kind soul inside, he's being deceived by all. It hurts because he doesn't know.
It hurts for a fact that i care.

He's my little brother.

I pray Allah grant us taufiq and hidayah.

You got a lot more inside of you,

You got a lot more

You got a lot more inside of you,

You don't show

You got a lot more inside of you,

I am there

You got a lot more inside of you,

You're being unfair.

But there's just something about you,

Something beautiful

There's just something about you,

Something true

Something about you,

Something innocent-

Something naive

Just something about you

You got to belief.

Stand tall my dear

Chin up!

Brace your shoulders

Nothing to fear

Grab that mic,

and sing it out
Sing it out, sing out loud.
They don't matter
Even for a few words

That will just do.

My heart sank upon reading

Al-fatihah to AL-HABIB ( Abdulkadir Bin Ahmed Asseggaf) who passed away in Jeddah Innalillah wa Inna ilaihi Rajioon

Just hearing a scholar and a successor of the salaf that has moved on to the eternal world, a greater world, a better world wraps me with grief.

Dear Habib, when can i join you?

Allahummaghfir lahu warhamhu wa 'aafihi wa'fu anhu wa taqabbal hasanaatih wa tajawwas an sayyiaatih wansurhu fi jannatil a'la ma'a aslafihis sholihin wa jaddihil a'dham shollohu alaihi wa ala aalihi wa sallam, wa yu'iidu alaina min barokaatihi wa asroorihi wa imdaadihi wa nafah aatihi fii daaril fana' wa daaril baqa' wa yajma'naa ma'ahu fii zumrotis su'aada'. Ameen.

...Alhamdulillah

One of four greatest women of all time

♥♥♥
It had been related by Abu Hurairah ra that on one occasion, when Khadijah was still alive, Jibril came to the Prophet saw and said, "O Messenger of Allah, Khadijah is just coming with a bowl of soup (or food or drink) for you. When she comes to you, give her greetings of peace from her Lord and from me, and give her the good news of a palace of jewels in the Garden, where there will be neither any noise nor any tiredness." She replied with "innAllaha huwas-salaam, wa ‘alaa Jibreel as-salaam, wa 'alayka as-salaam ya Rasulullah"

And that's one of why Allah chose Her ra for Him saw.

Berilmu, Beramal, Bertaqwa

I'm just going to leave it up to my parents now. 

I trust, whatever i'm equipped with for all these years is enough for me to pass through, and be there for the better and the worse.

It seems like the tears shed was as much as the sky had cried. And the trees looked bowed, defeated.

What's happening out there that led to this pour?
Could it be that we're missing another great soul, one of whom You love?

This has been like so ever since hababah (may Allah bless her soul) passed away.

Subhanallah, this self is an insult. I'm a needy, always so.

Dear daughter

Break that wall in front of you and the rest will be easy

plan

Matters of provisions, soul mate, death are in the hands of God. He has prepared it for us, so why greed? It's the efforts that count, just so we have a life. To make it more interesting, we don't do tit for tat. We don't expect to benefit just because we have done so much. Apparently that 'so much', is only so little in the eyes of Allah. It's incomparable with what He has blessed us with. Whatever rewards we get, are only because of His rahmah. But humans, as always being forgetful, make it as an excuse of their status for them to achieve their ambitions. By God, only ambitions of sunnah are worth pursuing for.

Ustadha Ebtihal Aljufri

Surah Al-Anbiya' 21:31
And We have set on the earth mountains standing firm, lest it should shake with them and We have made therein broad highways (between mountains) for them to pass through: that they may receive guidance.

regret

I realised, i'm not good at handling failures. No, no.
Oh Allah, i've wronged myself... i lost perspective.
And this grief won't go away...

pearls of wisdom

At the outset of his tausiyah (lecture), Shaykh Muhammad (bin Ibrahim bin Ismail al-Ya'qubi al-Hassani) said:

I am happy to be here. I am happy to meet seekers of knowledge, people who are on the journey to Allah, people of Allah. I've been meeting many people since I got here (KL Malaysia) but I was not entirely happy. Some of the things people do for the sake of Allah, Alhamdulillah but there are people who do things for fame, propaganda, and some people have an agenda. May Allah forgive us all. May Allah accept it as ibadah. But I am happy that my trip ends here with you.

Shaykh al-Akbar Muhyiddin Ibn al-Arabi said in his Futuhat al-Makkiyah where he quoted Tayfur Abu Yazid al-Bistami: "Whenever you meet a man who loves the awliya and believes in the miracles of awliya, ask him to make du'a for you." So I am asking you to make du'a for me as I'm going back to Damascus tonight. Please make du'a for me, my family and children. InshaAllah. It is also said that if you love the ahlil bayt, you are verily one of them. Please help us by following the sunnah of Rasulullah s.a.w, that's all we ask of you.

Oh brother, our journey is not about this world. We are not here to stay forever. This is a foreign piece of land. We are foreigners here. We are captives. Our original home is al-Jannah!

A sufi poet says, "Your home land is not here, it is where wine is halal, no intoxication in it, your Beloved one is talking to you there." The best pleasure is on fridays when they see Allah, when they are in the presence of Allah. Such are real homes. This whole universe is but a servant.

Our souls are created from light. They are transparent. Ruh and angels have no density. Food, drinks and marriage belongs to the earth. If you have more of these, you will be more attached to the earth and more detached from the heavens. Our souls feed on zikr, Qur'an recitation, reflection, contemplation and witnessing Allah. These are pleasures for the soul. But many people are veiled from knowing that we are made of two things. The soul is in our heart. Death is only a separation between the body and soul. The soul would still be able to hear, travel and learn until the day of Qiyamah.

So we need to work on the other side. The people of Allah, they tell us what to do in order to strengthen our soul. The awliya eat very little. They don't feel hungry.

There is a hadith about Dajjal (anti-Christ). He is half blind and kaf-fa-ro (kafir) will be written on his forehead. The believers would recognize that. During the end of time, there will be a mountain of bread but no one would be allowed to eat unless he/she submits to Dajjal. So Saydatina Aishah r.a. she is an intelligent woman, she asked the Prophet, "what would the believers eat then?" To which the Prophet said, 'Their food is tasbih (Subhanallah)." Nowadays, people like to go on diet. If you asked me, I'd say the best diet is zikr Allah. But it would be better if you do your zikr under the guidance of a murshid. You will not feel hungry and it will burn all your fat.

Things like this you cannot see with your eyes but they work. Like when you change your clothes. What is the veil between you and the eyes of jinn? You say a'uzubillahiminash shaitanirrajim and it will form like a physical veil for you. The jinn won't be able to see you. In fact every time you say a zikr Allah, He creates an angel out of your words who will guard them until the end of time. These words will be around you for barakah. Know that righteous believers are better than common angels and the Prophet is certainly better than the top angels such as Jibril.

So if you are fearful of anything recite surah al-Quraish 3 times. Allah will grant you security. Repeat the part where it says wa a mana hum min qauf to get salam (security) from Allah. And if you are hungry, repeat falyaqbudu robbaha zal baitil lazi ato amahum min juu'in and rub your stomach.

Oh brother, Allah does not need your worship. There is a hadith qudsi on this. But He says 'Wama kholaktal jinna wal insa illa liyak budun' that we are created to worship Him. Nevertheless, a more accurate translation for liyak budun is actually 'to know Me'. We are created for makrifah, for knowing Him. He wants to honor us with His knowledge. Whereas ibadah is the means to know Allah. This term is considered majaz mursal, like a metaphor, it's using the instrument to reach the goal and it adds beauty to the text.

Let me ask you, do we have to pray fajr tomorrow? The answer is no because fajr is not here yet. It will become obligatory when fajr is in tomorrow. You see Allah does not enforce prayer upon us until the time comes and yet Allah guarantee our rizq for the rest of our life. Still we are so concerned about our provision, about something which is guaranteed for us and we neglect what is required of us. Your rizq is in the heavens but you must not wait for it. You must go out to seek it and seeking your rizq is not a burden, it's a joy.

The position of a sufi, the high ranking awliya like Shaykh Abdul Qadir al-Jilani for example, they only go or do something when they are directed by Allah. They don't make their own decision. Awliya have no choice of their own because they choose what Allah chooses for them so they are like feathers in the air, moving about with the wind.

You thank Allah when Allah decreed something that is according to your wish. You wanted something so you prayed for it and when Allah fulfills your wish, you thank Him. But the awliya they thank Allah that Allah make them do what He wants.

Allah gives us furqan which is light so we know which direction to go. Furqan is like a distinguishing light telling us which is right, which is wrong. When you make istikharah, go towards the direction where you feel your chest is open. Shaykh al-Akbar Shaykh Muhyiddin Ibn al-Arabi says "observe the first thought' that comes to your mind. But be sure your mind is neutral and not inclined to any particular choice. The first thought is from Ar Rahman."

Imam al-Kisa'i, a lughah expert, a man of distinction, was asked when he was on deathbed. "What was your ibadah?" - as in what was his main favorite ibadah in addition to the fard and standard nawafil that a righteous man would do. He said "I make myself a guard of my heart. Everytime anything other than Allah comes into my heart, I knock it out." Your heart is a fortress which you must guard.

The awliya loves the Prophet very much. In their heart is only Allah and Rasulullah. Sayyidina Abu Bakar r.a. wanted to kill his son because the boy (Abdul Rahman) was a disobedient son; he was fighting against the Muslims at some point. After a battle where the father and the son had fought against each other, Abdul Rahman said to his father "O father I had a clear shot of you during the battle but I didn't kill you (because you are my father)." Upon hearing that Sayyidina Abu Bakar said, "O son, if I had a clear shot of you, I would have killed you for the sake of Rasulullah for I love him more than I love you!"

So that is the kind of love the awliya have in their hearts. They, the awliya also observe their breath making sure it is one of taat or worship. With every breath there is a new bounty from Allah. Bounties are not only when you graduate, get married or get a child but bounties are abound with each breath.

I was blessed to have been brought up by my father who was a wali. My uncles, my grandfathers, my grandfather's uncles, most of them are awliya. When I was a child we lived during a time when there was no electricity so we used plenty of candles. As a boy I was often asked to put out the candles. What do you do when you want to extinguish the fire? I blew them like the sound "uurhh...uurrh..." but my father forbade me from doing that because it sounded like the word which Allah forbids. Allah forbids us from saying "uurh" to our parents. When our parents ask us to do something we don't want to do, we tend to make that sound, we do it but we do it grumpily. "what should I do then?", I asked my father. He said "you should blow out each candle saying Ya Latifff..." and therewith your breath will have extinguished the fire while you do zikr."

"Oh brothers and sisters,
with your permission,
I am leaving to the airport now.
I am going back to Damascus
but I leave my heart with you!"

***
conveyed by izza ismail

and all i know, that this world can not matter

they draw lines on their faces, getting ink from the heat
pictures in their heads of beautifully crafted piece,
of babies and smiles, of the moon and the stars,
then they see the splash of the yellow sun,
telling them - this is life, an art indeed.

but they know the sun won't come out one day,
a gorgeous glow will fill up the space instead.
a promise for the real ones, not of from canvas,
scents of laughter taking over the colors and spread,
really enchanting, enthralling, an unimaginable really.
and i wish they, you, we, will get there someday.

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SANA HELWA YA GAMIL!!

and i hope i'll find my dream...

Hayaat, wal asr

Imam Ibn ul Qayyim al Jawziyyah:

Your life in the present moment is in between the past and the future. So what has preceded can be rectified by tawbah (repentance), nadam (regret) and istighfar (seeking Allaah’s forgiveness). And this is something that will neither tire you, nor cause you to toil as you would with strenuous labour. Rather it is an action of the heart. Then as regards the future (then it can be corrected) by withholding yourself from sins. And this abandonment is merely the leaving of something and to be at ease from it. This also is not action of the limbs, which requires you to strive and toil. Rather this is a firm resolve and intention of the heart – which will give rest to your body, heart and thoughts. So as for what has preceded, then you rectify it with repentance. And as for the future – then you rectify it with firm resolve and intention. Neither of these involves any hardship or exertion of the limbs.

But then your attention must be directed to your life in the present - the time between two times. If you waste it, then you have wasted the opportunity to be of the fortunate and saved ones. If you look after it, having rectified the two times – what is before and after it, as we have said – then you will be successful and achieve rest, delight and ever-lasting bliss. However, looking after it is harder than that which comes before and after it, since guarding it involves keeping to that which is most befitting and beneficial for your soul, and that which will bring it success and well-being.

al-Fawaa’id, pp 151-152
Al-Istiqaamah, No. 2