about two

I don't know what is it about love. I often refer to marriage and thought it's just a mutual regard of bearing the responsibilities each one is 'assigned' to, like just another job u're acting upon. 'you do your part and i'll do mine, we'll be teamworking in harmony, work hard, and of course - all for the sake of Allah.' Little did i know it's more complicated than that.

Because it involves feelings. One that i've always cheated just to avoid pain. Feelings that can let your soul fly, your mind wonder, your body yearn, and your heart miss. It's crazy! I'm still trying to deny this, at least i think it's best for now. I have tonnes of things to get done before the date, i can't let myself loose yet. But, who am i kidding? You have to agree, it's just not easy.

Sigh.

I'm a coward still though. But it's my problem not yours.

i miss home :'(

Ya Ayyuhal Walad

live however you wish because you will die one day,
love anything you wish because you will part from it one day,
do whatever you wish because you will be judged accordingly.

Make it a lesson for us cause it's Allah's way of reminding.

It hurts, yes.
It hurts to know while he's a kind soul inside, he's being deceived by all. It hurts because he doesn't know.
It hurts for a fact that i care.

He's my little brother.

I pray Allah grant us taufiq and hidayah.

You got a lot more inside of you,

You got a lot more

You got a lot more inside of you,

You don't show

You got a lot more inside of you,

I am there

You got a lot more inside of you,

You're being unfair.

But there's just something about you,

Something beautiful

There's just something about you,

Something true

Something about you,

Something innocent-

Something naive

Just something about you

You got to belief.

Stand tall my dear

Chin up!

Brace your shoulders

Nothing to fear

Grab that mic,

and sing it out
Sing it out, sing out loud.
They don't matter
Even for a few words

That will just do.

My heart sank upon reading

Al-fatihah to AL-HABIB ( Abdulkadir Bin Ahmed Asseggaf) who passed away in Jeddah Innalillah wa Inna ilaihi Rajioon

Just hearing a scholar and a successor of the salaf that has moved on to the eternal world, a greater world, a better world wraps me with grief.

Dear Habib, when can i join you?

Allahummaghfir lahu warhamhu wa 'aafihi wa'fu anhu wa taqabbal hasanaatih wa tajawwas an sayyiaatih wansurhu fi jannatil a'la ma'a aslafihis sholihin wa jaddihil a'dham shollohu alaihi wa ala aalihi wa sallam, wa yu'iidu alaina min barokaatihi wa asroorihi wa imdaadihi wa nafah aatihi fii daaril fana' wa daaril baqa' wa yajma'naa ma'ahu fii zumrotis su'aada'. Ameen.

...Alhamdulillah

One of four greatest women of all time

♥♥♥
It had been related by Abu Hurairah ra that on one occasion, when Khadijah was still alive, Jibril came to the Prophet saw and said, "O Messenger of Allah, Khadijah is just coming with a bowl of soup (or food or drink) for you. When she comes to you, give her greetings of peace from her Lord and from me, and give her the good news of a palace of jewels in the Garden, where there will be neither any noise nor any tiredness." She replied with "innAllaha huwas-salaam, wa ‘alaa Jibreel as-salaam, wa 'alayka as-salaam ya Rasulullah"

And that's one of why Allah chose Her ra for Him saw.

Berilmu, Beramal, Bertaqwa

I'm just going to leave it up to my parents now. 

I trust, whatever i'm equipped with for all these years is enough for me to pass through, and be there for the better and the worse.